My own experience with hair loss began unexpectedly, and like many others, in my early twenties. It started innocuously enough, with a few more strands than usual accumulating in the shower drains or tangled in my brush. At first, I dismissed it and attributed the hair loss to stress or changes in my diet. However, as the weeks passed, the reality of my thinning hair became impossible to ignore.
The moment of realization was a crushing blow to my self-esteem. I remember standing in front of the mirror, staring at my reflection with a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. My once thick and lustrous mane had become noticeably sparse, revealing patches of scalp that seemed to mock me with their barrenness. It felt as though I was losing a part of myself, a vital aspect of my identity that I had always taken for granted.
Denial soon gave way to despair, and I found myself withdrawing from social situations out of fear of judgment and ridicule. I became hyper-aware of every passing glance and whispered comment, convinced that everyone around me was silently judging my appearance. The shame of my hair loss became a heavy burden that I carried with me everywhere and it became a constant reminder, in every reflection I came across and every picture that was taken.
In an effort to conceal my thinning hair, I turned to hats as a temporary solution. Plus, a product called mane spray, which was filthy and made a mess on pillows. They became my constant companions, shielding me from the prying eyes of the world and providing a thin veneer of normalcy. Yet, even as I hid behind the brim of my cap, I couldn't escape the gnawing sense of shame that accompanied each passing day. My excuse for the caps all the time was my sponsors insisted I kept my cap on as I was then a golf professional.
Living with hair loss in my early twenties, taught me resilience in the face of adversity and the importance a drive that would lead me to being the owner and managing director of what is hair4alluk.
In part 2 of my blog, you will learn more about my life without hair and how I discovered hair systems while being in the USA and how it changed my life for the better. Check out our blog page for the latest posts.
